The Lost Dreams!!! Part -1

His arms were the only place she felt secured, she felt loved and she felt blessed. At times she would wonder if all this is real, she has so much of love in her life. She didn’t wished and prayed anything more than they being together always, the way they are today. She was glad he was there with her. His presence made her realized how beautiful her world is!!!

She was just another girl in her college. Carefree, joyful, cheerful, lost among her friends enjoying her college days like any other student. Her 1st year exams were over and she hadn’t given much of a thought as what she plans to do after graduation. She had her own group of friends. Going to college everyday, attending classes, spending hours chatting gossiping, eating chats, going for small shoppings with friends, all this was just a part of her life. After months of studying and exams being over she was just making the most of whatever few months were left, for the college to get over.
She didn’t had a boyfriend and she didn’t feel that there is anything missing in her life. She was happy in her life and her people around.

One fine day at her usual place on the stairs she was talking to her friend, unaware of the fact that after this what’s going to happen would change her life and her completely in the years to come.
She saw him coming inside the college premises from the gate and coming towards her. She had seen him few times before in these 2 years in college but never paid that much attention as he was not from her class.
She doesn’t knows what made her ask her friend as soon she saw him coming towards them. Iska naam kya hain. Her friend promptly replied and told his name. By that time he was close enough to the tap which was just beside the stairs they were seated, and he asked her, naam puch rahe ho. Well with no other option she had to say yes with a smile. After drinking the water he asked her what are you.. She didn’t understand what he meant and asked him what do you mean what am I. He said no I meant where are you from. After this he started talking to her friend who was his friend also and in his class as well.

Well the walk that day inside the college gate was not just an ordinary walk. It was a walk he made in her life and be a part of her and the story they made together in their lives.

P.S- to be continued.

My Holidays!!!

I was on a long break and had gone to my home town Calcutta. Yes that’s the way I love calling it despite it having a new name Kolkata. The break was definitely worth taking…it was almost close to 2 yrs that I had been there. As soon as I stepped out of the airport the sweat and humidity welcomed me. Yes it was horribly hot there but still I was too excited to mind anything. Nothing has changed, oh yes but the seating arrangement in public buses has changed and now the seats are back to back. What an eye I have. Well as I said nothing has changed. The weather is same, humid and hot, the roads are same congested and most of the times crowded with handpulled rickshaws and small tea shops. The small sweet shops still line the roads. Handpumps to be seen everywhere. The small lanes which eventually lead to big houses. When I stepped inside my home I was so excited to see all my brothers and sisters. Yes I have a big joint family and I don’t like my uncles kids to be called as my cousins. They are my brothers and sisters. I am the oldest among them and the youngest is Meghu with just 3 and half years old. They were all so happy and excited to see me. Not once I felt I was away from them from such a long time.
I treated my self to the fish curry I had been missing from such a long time. Everyday I use to eat the different kind of sweets from mishit doi to gojaa..Life was nothing just getting up having breakfast watching tv, chilling at home. How I missed all this. I went out to meet my school friends and it was delighting to meet them. Infact I met one of my friend Utsav after 10 yrs. And he has still hasn’t changed with all his witty and silly jokes still at place. I use to become so nostalgic when I would cross a certain road or place and think, some years back I use to pass this road everyday, use to take this bus everyday.. and now I hardly get to see it.

Some places are sketched in our mind just like memories, moments. Places which have seen you evolve as a person, from a small child to a grown up. Places which has given you your 1st crush, your 1st love, your best friends, your lifelong relationships, your favourite hangout , your favourite cuisines, your tears and happiness and not to say some of the best memories. Places which has given you an identity and what you are today. They have witness all of that.. Today when I was crossing the junction of my college I was just wondering, this city has given and taken away so many things from me. Things I never wanted from life but still it gave me and so much happiness along with it, and things I never wanted to let go but still it was taken away. Whatever it is as I said Calcutta will always be home. I feel at peace with myself when I am there. Even if I am lonely I don’t feel the loneliness. The moments spent, the feeling of close friends, my family my house where I spent my childhood keep me warm and happy.
Its something, I would never let go!!!!

My Love!!!

I am going to meet my love!!!
I am going to Calcutta this Sunday for a loooooongggg vacation. Calcutta is the city I love to be in!!!

And did I tell you that I share my birthday today with Rahul Gandhi.. Now you cant wish him so you can as well wish me:-)

Take care all of you and see you once I am back.

A Beautiful World!!!

He – It will be a boy!!!
She- No it should be a girl…

He- No I want someone to play football and cricket with me and play car racing games. Girls are no good in that…
She- No I want someone to dress up like a doll and purchase all cute little things for her.

He- Can you girls think beyond dressing up and make up. Its final it would be a boy…
She- And can you guys think beyond games and cricket…

He- Fine I agree we cant. Happy… It would be a boy!!!
She- No no..its our first kid and and it would be girl.

He- You don’t understand, If it’s a girl we have to be very protective towards her. Boys will be behind her. The world is no more a good place to live in you see !!! (tries all his efforts to convince her)
She- Yes and if it’s a boy he would be the one who would go behind all those girls…and I don’t want that..

He- Fine do you what you want..
She- A big smile. Thank you jaan. I love you for standing by me for everything.

He- hugs her. Any thing for you…

Next Day…Missionaries of Charities Orphanage.

He – She is so cute… just like you.
She- I am afraid to hold her. She is so small, so fragile. What if I hurt her.

He- Don’t worry I am there with you. Together we will take care of her and give her all the love she deserves.
Lets go home with our baby girl and give her a world full of love.

Encourage Adoption. Make Lives Beautiful...

A Love Story!!!

He- I love you!!!
She- Is quiet....
He- You don’t want to say anything.
She- I think my bus has come.
He- Ok.. come I will drop u till the bus..
She- Takes the bus.
He - Still waits for an answer.
She- Looks at him from the window, smiles at him, her eyes saying it all, what he wanted to hear!!!
He- Gets his answers, waits for tomorrow when they would have a new beginning together..

p.s- This is not a work of fiction, but a true story:-)

Maine Dekha hain...

This is my first attempt to write a poetry. Good or bad I dont know. I just wanted to post it as I have written it.

Sapno mein khud ko jeete hue dekha hain.
Phir unhi sapno me khud ko tut the hue paaya hain

Ek kalki umeed
Ek saath ka ehsaas
Man me geet
Wo saath jo tha bahut khaas.
In sapno ko sanjote hue dekha hain
Phir inhi me khud ko bikharte hue paaya hain

Kuch palo me hui thi jab zindagi roshan
Un palon ko andhere me khote hue dekha hain
Hawan ki jhokon mein un saari yaadon ko
Un baton ko khud se jhujhte hue paaya hain

Kuch yaadein kuch baatein,
kuch sapnen, lekar aaj chalein hain
Jo manzil mil gayi to chal padenge
Jo naa mili to kya haathon mein inhe liye
Yahin baithe rahenge…….!!!!!!!!

Maine bhikre pare tukron mein bhi kal ka aks dekha hai
Khud ko gir ke phir sambhalte huye payaa hai
Mana ki tukre aaj bhi chubhte hain
Magar us dard mein bhi khud ko muskurate huye paya hai….

Have You Ever!!!!

Have you been in a crowd,

And felt alone.

Have you been in the sunshine,

But look at darkness..

Have you seen a million dreams,

But they have just remained thus…

Have you had expectations,
But went unnoticed...

Have you had beautiful moments,
And only the thoughts’ remain!!!

Have you held the night with a single hand, and not let it go,
But realized it’s all gone and make yourself understand!!!

Have you loved someone with all you have,
And found yourself feeling empty!!!

Have you counted the days to be with them
But the days never seemed to end!!!

Have you trusted someone with all your heart,
But then realized your heart was lying to you!!!

Have you prayed to God,
Only to get your prayers unanswered!!!

Have you thought of always being together
But there was just a lonely life to last forever!!!

Have you wanted to live a life,
Just to know that everything within you is dead!!!

Have you wanted to hold them and never let them go
But all they wanted is to... let you go!!!