A Love Story!!!

He- I love you!!!
She- Is quiet....
He- You don’t want to say anything.
She- I think my bus has come.
He- Ok.. come I will drop u till the bus..
She- Takes the bus.
He - Still waits for an answer.
She- Looks at him from the window, smiles at him, her eyes saying it all, what he wanted to hear!!!
He- Gets his answers, waits for tomorrow when they would have a new beginning together..

p.s- This is not a work of fiction, but a true story:-)

Maine Dekha hain...

This is my first attempt to write a poetry. Good or bad I dont know. I just wanted to post it as I have written it.

Sapno mein khud ko jeete hue dekha hain.
Phir unhi sapno me khud ko tut the hue paaya hain

Ek kalki umeed
Ek saath ka ehsaas
Man me geet
Wo saath jo tha bahut khaas.
In sapno ko sanjote hue dekha hain
Phir inhi me khud ko bikharte hue paaya hain

Kuch palo me hui thi jab zindagi roshan
Un palon ko andhere me khote hue dekha hain
Hawan ki jhokon mein un saari yaadon ko
Un baton ko khud se jhujhte hue paaya hain

Kuch yaadein kuch baatein,
kuch sapnen, lekar aaj chalein hain
Jo manzil mil gayi to chal padenge
Jo naa mili to kya haathon mein inhe liye
Yahin baithe rahenge…….!!!!!!!!

Maine bhikre pare tukron mein bhi kal ka aks dekha hai
Khud ko gir ke phir sambhalte huye payaa hai
Mana ki tukre aaj bhi chubhte hain
Magar us dard mein bhi khud ko muskurate huye paya hai….

Have You Ever!!!!

Have you been in a crowd,

And felt alone.

Have you been in the sunshine,

But look at darkness..

Have you seen a million dreams,

But they have just remained thus…

Have you had expectations,
But went unnoticed...

Have you had beautiful moments,
And only the thoughts’ remain!!!

Have you held the night with a single hand, and not let it go,
But realized it’s all gone and make yourself understand!!!

Have you loved someone with all you have,
And found yourself feeling empty!!!

Have you counted the days to be with them
But the days never seemed to end!!!

Have you trusted someone with all your heart,
But then realized your heart was lying to you!!!

Have you prayed to God,
Only to get your prayers unanswered!!!

Have you thought of always being together
But there was just a lonely life to last forever!!!

Have you wanted to live a life,
Just to know that everything within you is dead!!!

Have you wanted to hold them and never let them go
But all they wanted is to... let you go!!!

My First Award!!!

Well I have got my first Blog Award from Kajal...http://lifeofthepinkorchid.blogspot.com/

Thanks kajal for this award. This is my first and I am so excited that even I have one award now. Thanks a ton:-)

Random Things!!!

Its Wednesday today!!! There is hardly any substantial work I have done since Monday.
From Monday I was kinda not feeling well. Not sure if I was also a victim of Monday blues. P.s I have never hated Mondays unlike my other colleagues and never whined to come to office. This monday though was entirely different. I was just not feeling good and was irritated. The weather too was gloomy and dull.
A surprise conversation with someone also didn’t do anything good to uplift my mood. I thought, going home I will sit down and do some justice to my german homework which I have been planning to do since Sunday. I didn’t do that also.
Today I have promised myself, that I would go home and sit down to study and not waste my time watching tv. Lets see how good I am at fulfilling it.

Rajani!!!

Ok before anyone starts guessing anything that whether its about the teleserial Rajani well it’s not.
Rajani is my friend from college and its been 10 years now that I have known her. After my college we lost touch and I had never thought that I would get to speak to her, as I moved out of Calcutta to do my M.B.A. We had shared some very good, bad wonderful, angry, eating and study (ah can’t remember this one) moments together.. In college we would always be together though she was from Arts and I was in Science. I don’t really recollect how and when our friendship started. Probably it was just coincidence that we got together. We use to fix up time that we would be coming to college at this time.In the morning I use to call her and tell her that what time I would be coming to college. We would meet, chit chat, roam in and around college, go for our respective classes and then again come back and start our chit chatting. I really think hard to recollect what we use to talk so much.

There were 2 joints we regularly visited almost. The bhelpuri waala and the imli chutney waala. In just 5 bucks we use to eat bhelpuri and 1 or 2 rs we use to buy that chatpati chutney and eat and do time pass. We use to share almost everything. Any problems, any good news, the food we ate. Evenings I use to drop her by her bus stop and waited till she get into a bus. She never used to allow me to sit and study in library even if I wanted to. I remember going with her for one of her history classes (remember I was in science) and the professor caught me talking and he made me stand up and asked me to say which chapter he was teaching. I was obviously blank as I was not paying attention and it was not my subject after all. We use to call each other from home also and talk. It was such fun filled days such days where we had no tensions no worry no responsibilities.
College was just fun!!!

8th May 2002 was the last time I saw her. That day we had our last final exams.
Today we are in touch again but our life has changed a mega lot. She still remembers so many things about us. She was telling me today that I gave her a big card on friendship day, but I really don’t remember, She also remembers certain things that I would have told her and certain instances where what my reaction was. She still remembers almost everything.
We use to talk and plan about how and where our life would be. What we would do in the years to come. Its all changed and its all went in a different way.

As I moved in life I got more friends and more people took a special place, but for her I am still her only friend the way I was years back. I don’t know should I be happy or sad!!! Wishing her all the best and everything good in life.

Jaane kahan Gaye Wo Din!!!

I was surfing through channels and that’s when I stopped at DD 1. Chitrahaar was coming.

Remembered the good old days when we used to wait for Wednesdays. Wednesday were the days when Chitrahaar use to come. Don’t remember the time but I guess it was from 7 pm to 8 pm.

I still remember how I would be excited from morning that, oh today’s Wednesday and Chitrahaar is going come. More remarkable was the patience that we al had to sit and see the songs. It was just songs and still we enjoyed it so much looking athe songs. My mom would scold me sometimes for leaving my studies and watching tv. Not watching chitrahaar was something a sacrifice I didn’t wanted to go through.

Today I really don’t remember if hardly I would just pause and listen to a complete song unless its my super duper favourite track. We just keep on flicking channels. With enough channels and programmes at disposal we have lost value for the old and good things and as well as the patience.

With less we were happy and with more life has become just a means of existence.